After doing some dual airwork in relatively light winds and a nearly perfectly executed engine failure simulation, my instructor sent me out on my own, maybe 7 or 8 miles from the airport, and back for a few circuits. While I was out on my own, the winds picked up: I would estimate they nearly doubled. They also veered and created more crosswind. My intent was 4 landings.
The first landing was not great, I bounced high enough I had to add power to ease back down and had to (IMO) power up before touching down with the nose gear as I just couldn't quite nail it. The second landing was worse. Probably ⅔ of the way between centreline and the left edge (this is YTZ, so it's a pretty big runway and I was waaaaay left of centre), and couldn't keep it straight.
The second landing, I was cleared for a touch and go. After putting the aircraft on the ground, I reversed my decision and noped the departure, turning it into a full stop. It's not that I was afraid or overly stressed, but all available evidence told me that these conditions were beyond what I was capable of; the landing provided me with new evidence that changed the risk calculation. ATC was clearly pissed at me.
[edit]I should also add, the winds veered from W to NW - from 280 to 330 on runway 26. Anyone who's flown over Toronto's inner harbour in a gusty NW or North wind knows how choppy it can get.[/edit]
In hindsight, in those conditions, I should have asked for the option - I knew it was going to be a choppy approach. But also in hindsight, I'd make the same decision again in the same situation. So - while this was a clear violation, it's important to reflect on the decision at times and remind oneself that my ass comes before my license, and that the ultimate decision of what is safe and what is not is mine alone.
If anyone happens to know who was working the YTZ ground and tower frequency at around noon today, please forward my apologies to ATC.
Didn't want to hijack that thread. Here's the question - You violate an ATC instruction without communicating your intentions because you believe it to be unsafe and time is of the essence. This is a perfect example; you're cleared for a touch and go, but you make a full stop. Maybe at the last second you heard the wheel bearings make a noise you've never heard, or maybe you suddenly realize there's a danger of wake turbulence you did not previously account for - say for example, caused by a NAV Canada jet testing the ILS system and flying all over the place (haha, that happened today too). Or maybe, as in my case, new evidence suggests you cannot safely land the aircraft again. Is that a failure?